Feeling free

I was sleeping when suddenly, I felt paralysised. I could feel my whole body shaking as if I was being electrocuted. It wasn’t painful. I just got use to it. Then, I felt myself floating above my bed. I believe it was because it felt as if I above my bed. I tried to look down but a thought said “you might go back to your body if look at your body”. So, I floated around and it was a great feeling but I wasn’t use to it. I then heard a voice but I wasn’t use to the voice so I wanted to go back. Then, I believe I saw something that looked like a light or a mirror. I went back to my body, I felt paralysised again but I went out. A thought told me I could go come out and explore. It was a great feeling being out. At one point, I believe I was at the end of my bed and I tried to come down but I floated back up like a balloon. Then I was back.

God is our father

Last night, I was worrying about whether I’ll end up in hell because I have challenged God to take my life. I have had times when I felt suicidal and I cried out to God. As I was lying in a yoga child pose, (I was doing yoga at that time) I said in my mind to God. “Am I going to hell?”. The answer I could see was.. no. Then a thought entered my mind. The thought was about how God looks after His children. I am His daughter. He will look after me. God will never give up on His children. Before, I thought I wasn’t God’s child since religion has taught me that God is holy and I am a child of the devil. But now I know, that’s not true. Who else made us? Last night was a tough night. I kept crying out to God. There was a small voice saying “I’m here”. I’ve learnt God is truly our father. ♥

A great experience ^_^

I was sleeping and I realised I was in a dream. I wasn't frightened. I wanted to wake up but I wanted to try to escape out of my body too. I wanted to fly. I could feel a presence with me. It wasn't a relative because I wasn't given any names. I thought it could have been God. I knew He was with me. I remember being awake in the dream and then I heard a pop sound. (I have realised in OBEs, people went back to their bodies and heard a popping sound). I guess this is was what happened to me too. It was as if someone 100 times bigger than me, came to me and popped their finger and placed me into shape and into my body. I felt being slotted into place too. I'm sure I could feel God but He is 1000 times bigger than me. It’s hard to explain. But I remember, I was floating and I wanted to go down but something told me something. I thought if I went down, I could experience the lower realms. But I decided to go up. I said in a cool way, I want to go up. There was something else. I felt as if I was a child of God. God was happy with me. I felt so much joy. I felt as if I was protected and accepted. I woke up in the world. I opened my eyes but I saw no “black demons“. I don’t believe in demons people recognise as black and mean.  I just saw my room. I saw what was in front of me. My radiator and my bed. I tried to move but I couldn't  Then, I tried to move my arms but I felt my spiritual arms. I could move them but I didn't see them. I fell asleep, then I could see a darkened cinema. I thought, it could be my life review. And I was paralysed and I tried to move and I then soon could.

How I realised Jesus will have everyone saved

Before, I was worried about eternal hell. That’s one of the reasons why I became a christian, the fear of hell. I moved church to church. At the church I last went to, I didn’t feel comfortable. The pastor would preach about hell sometimes. This would make me uncomfortable. How can I worship a god who would send most of his creation to a fiery hell forever? It just didn’t make sense in my mind. I didn’t feel comfortable. I moved the idea of eternal hell to the back of my mind. I backslidded many times and I was hoping eternal hell wouldn’t be real. I watched videos of people who apparently went to hell. This frightened me. Then one time, I was curious whether eternal hell was real. I read a article and then I searched “is eternal hell real?” into YouTube. I found many videos and a video called eternal hell refuted was amazing. I was skeptical at first but once I thought about the idea, I was so happy. Then, there was many questions and doubts  in my mind. After all that, I came to the conclusion that God will have everyone saved. I found a website called tentmaker and that website helped me too. I cried out to God, I broke down. Tears were falling from my face. I cried out “God, why would you send people to eternal hell?” “What is the whole point of my life, if I’ll just end up in hell”. “What’s the point of making people and then sending them to hell?” Then deep in my heart, I felt a answer. He wouldn’t do that. I prayed to God to show me if He has shown me about universal salvation and an answer came to me “I have”. Thanks to God, I can enjoy life now. I have fallen in love with my father who created me, who thought of me and knew me when I was knitted in my mother’s womb.